Fun in the Sun

We are back from our week trip to the sunny land of California. Jason and I took the kids to Disneyland for three days and we also went to the beach. Since Bizy's b-day is was on Mother's Day this year, we had a special dinner with a princess on Sunday, our last day there. We had so much fun!!! keith came hoem singing the pirates song, and Jeremy loved the Hollywood Tower of Terror. Bizy's Favorite was the carosel and the Alice in Wonderland ride. I was surprised at how many rides I was able to ride, even being pregnant. I did sneak on a few that I though were ok, such as Soaring Over California, which is my favorite, and grizzly Rapids, which felt really good on the hot sunny days. By far though my favorite day was when we meet family at the beach for a nice relaxing afternoon. We just hung out at the beach and relaxed, while the kids built sand castles and played in the water.

Oddly my chest didnt bother me at all while we were there, but as soon as we hit the desert it came back with a vegance, and hasnt really let up since. I have another appointment scheduled for Monday and another on Friday. Hopefully we will be able to find out what is going on.

Stress

Well I ended up going to the Dr. Yesterday and they did a bunch of tests and I have an echocardiogram today. They found that my left ventricle is indeed enlarged and that two of my valves are not working properly. Atleast this is what the ultrasound tech said, and she said she would send the info along to the Dr. and he would call with the final review.

I am SO stressed right now. Obviously my body is not getting enough blood, but what concerns me more is the baby. If I am not getting enough blood, is the baby? I am so numb right now, all I want to do is curl up into a ball and cry. I feel so lost and confused. This is my 5th term pregnancy, My heart should be perfectly healthy! Did I ignore it so long that I made it worse than it originally was? Do I just suck it up, and move on as if nothing is wrong? I am still doing my typical daily activities, but I am easily winded, and I pass out alot. I just want to be whole, healthy and back to normal. I've always been healthy, why now??? What do I need to learn from this? What am I not getting, that I need to?

So many questions...